ugghhhhhhhh

all this crossposting recently has once again brought up the question of what the hell do you do with fic that no longer sparks joy? deleting feels like a waste but orphaning gives up too much control. i have, like, 150 fics published on anon right now but even then, that doesn't feel right, either? i tried making a secondary account once just for stuff i no longer vibed with but ended up transferring everything back.

i've been writing fic since i was 10? 11? and the things written from roughly age 14 onwards exist somewhere on ao3. i'll be the first to admit that a lot of it is Not Good, but a lot of it means something to me in one way or another, so the idea of getting rid of it makes me feel :/ despite the fact that i can't really look at it without cringing. some of it got really popular, too, and to this day i still receive kind comments on some of the x-men stuff, so it's one of those things where it's like, i want it to exist so they can enjoy it? but also oh god don't make me look at it. i don't know!